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school etc.

The joyous day of grad is soon arriving... only 28 more days, and only like 13 more days of school - It's going to be great. This summer is looking awesome. I need to figure out where everyone's going next year, and get some phone numbers and addresses... Right now the freshman Redeemer crowd from PRC is looking to be ELIZAbeth, Kathleen, Loreen, John W, and myself. Jeff got into Western the other day, so him and Jess will be going there, and Sean's going to finally go there (guess he decided another year of slugging bricks wasn't in the cards for him). James is back at Niagra again I think. Nathan is still waiting on Western, but he's not sure. Nick got into Ottawa, but he's not definite about going yet, although I'm sure he'd love living way out there with his sis' Kate. I think Jenn is headed to Lambton College or something..? and Lyds is off for another year of highschool, and then after a law degree or something like that. Lynze is headed to Ridgetown I thinks to pursue a career as a vet-tech, and to save all the little animals of the world from becoming chinese stir-fry and roadkill. Ken is working and NOT GOING TO SCHOOL EVER AGAIN! Congrats, buddy. Greta's looking for a job right now, sending out resumes galore, so I wish her the best and hope she finds a sweet job that she'll love - interior design or something like that I think it was at one point? Crazy how everyone's heading in different directions... workin on a final copy of a grad mix, so if you know some great tunes I might be missing that I need to have, give me a shout, drop me a line, getaholda me and let me know!

Brent

PS -> I forgot Laura! She's leaving August 25th for Ireland! How sweet a trip would that be???!!!

PSS - > and marlz! man i'm getting bad with the memory now. m is headed to guelph. or was it laurier?? shoot, i am getting bad here. i told her to go to laurier cuz it's a great school to go to, but colleen already razzed me out for not going to guelph, so yeah, i'm admitting that's a good school to. just don't get caught tossing watermelons, cabinets, and shopping carts off the 10th floor balconies. MARK!.

MacGregor Point

Senior Camping Trip
Last Wednesday, late in the afternoon, my grade twelve class left for our senior retreat. We went up to MacGregor Point till Wednesday night and had an amazing time. The guys in our class went for showers every night at like 1 or 2 am, and since we had the entire campground pretty much to ourselves, a lot of yelling and running around went on, especially considering it was a half hour walk one way to the showers. The rest of the trip we went on a lot of great hikes to the lake, played some great football, ultimate frisbee, and various other games on the beach. We went to Sauble Beach on Thursday night and Friday night to play soccer... Nick, Ken, Lydia, Beth, and myself were brave enough to go swimming at Sauble for about half an hour, but decided it was too cold after that, especially considering the black and blue of ken's hands from the cold. Friday night at the beach was great though: there were a ton of people out cruising because of the long weekend. We saw this one Civic get pulled over, and I pushed this one Mustang out of the sand when he got buried doing a brake torque (stupid move in wet sand, buddy). We went to a bunch of waterfalls too, and had a blast hiking around them and seeing how close we could get to the base.. there's going to be some great pics sometime from that, when Jeff burns them to cd and passes it around. And manalive, you should've seen the crazy times in the VanMepp's van.... haven't laughed that hard in a long time. 'twas definitely a great trip.
I'm out for now, ttyl,

Brent

the juliana theory

I was in a mood tonight... one of those ones when listening to the Juliana Theory sounds like a good thing to do. Happy reading...


AUGUST IN BETHANY
by brett detar
with the sounds of the ocean crashing 7:30 friday evening everything comes tumbling down i choke back each tear that bleeds i'd rather rest forever in your arms i'd rather stay here than go but i know that i should leave as i sit here helpless don't go you said you wouldn't you said you couldn't i think of our time together is it fading am i dreaming everything you said lives on i cherish our memories i want to kiss your tears away tonight it's hard to give up the one you never thought you'd leave don't go your eyes see through my soul don't go you say as i walk out the door.

SOMETHING ISN'T RIGHT HERE
by brett detar, joshua kosker, and chad alan
Something isn't right here. You've gone and left me on the ground. Something isn't right in this world called confusion. You gave it all away before you could lose it. Something isn't right here on the ground. You never said goodbye. You died. You chose to carry on a lie. Something isn't right here. You've gone and left me on the ground.

THIS IS YOUR LIFE
by brett detar and Chad Alan
baby, you say, "this is your life, well where is mine?" how you gonna get there going nowhere? burn yourself out. die too soon. you see the world is only temporary. everybody's scared that they'll be no one too. how you gonna hold out when you sold out? life's a riddle. here's a clue. You see, a moment's only temporary. let too many go, and you will be history too. "why?" you ask me. "Why?" i'll tell you. "Why?" i will tell you. You gave up baby.

It's Mother's Day

Theme From Cola
There's a song of that name by the band Moist... the lyrics started me thinking about the way our culture has degraded. They're something like this:

ours is the legacy of waste
waste all the things we turned to dust
simple if we would like to find
punished by words im taken
finally pressed youd like to know
known for the trip unfolding
pleasantries building as we go
timid the way ill take it
now memory is over memories over
are you still remembering
never meant to go there
are you still remembered
all through the dress i lie awake
tearful as ive been binding
only in your mind to make
helpful or not i take it
now memory is over memories over
are you still remembering
never meant to go there
are you still remembered

The thoughts might jump a bit, but one thing I do get out of it is how fast we fade, and how so many people just want to leave an impression in the dust that's left behind. The pleasures in this world are building, but they're essentially limited in that you just can't take that sort of thing with you. Memories.

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It's Mothers Day
"What'd you do for yours today??" Now that we've all heard that a few times.... I pitched in together with Brad and gave her a potted plant of some variety that I honestly have never seen before. It grows reddish, caterpillar-looking things. Far out. I briefly considered getting up early this morning to do the "breakfast in bed" bit for her, but that thought faded when I found out how tired I really was. At least it was a fairly uneventful drive home last night after Jess' party... ((this time)).

Rev. VanHal had some good thoughts on the theme of Mothers.... taken from Proverbs 31, the thing that King Lemuel's mother taught him. Must've been some lady, because she sure had some great insights. Try verse 10 and following - "Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies. The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil ((or as Rev. VanHal put it this morning, "booty" )). She will do him good and not evil in all the days of her life. She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands. She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth food from afar." vs. 25 - 31 -> "Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come. She openeth her mouth with wisdom; and in her tongue is the law of kindness.... Her children arise up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her.... Favour is deceitful, and beauty is vain: but a woman that feareth the LORD, she shall be praised." (taken from the KJV). Wow.

Well, I'm out for the moment, so here's to sunshine and open fields.

b

catching up

Storm - by Blyss (a.k.a. Lifehouse)
How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head
If I could just see you,
Everything would be alright
If my eyes could see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright
And everything will be alright

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down?
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
everything would be alright
If I see you
This darkness will turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be alright

I know everything is alright
Everything's alright.

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I came across this song not too long ago. Thought it was a really good example of what living the Christian life is like, especially in terms of the incident where Peter tried walking across the water to Jesus.

So I guess I haven't been too faithful in keeping this ejournal up, but I guess it's the busy time of year again in this area. Between the fieldwork at my job and how busy my parent's business is, I've got my hands full most of the time. Not to mention the schoolyear winding down and exams coming up in the next month. It still scares me sometimes how quickly highschool went now that I'm looking back at it. I still remember my first day of ninth grade - vividly. I only knew a few people, and not that well at all. But that first year turned out to be one of the better ones, at least looking back. They all have been good - I think it's just the way the entire school has changed so much in so many ways - especially in terms of attitude and physical location (to a more minor extent). It makes me feel really old sometimes when I see all the people younger than me starting into relationships - I think I'm starting to sound like an old bachelor here.

This Saturday night I'm off to a *surprise* birthday party for some friends from school - another few have turned 18. I always liked being head of the pack for reaching another mile marker like that, especially these last couple years when they're measured by things such as graduated licensing - G1, G2, and G -(driving addict I am). I wonder if I'll be as proud of reaching another year older before everyone else once I get passed what Western culture so quickly labels "the prime of life". Reminds me of a line from a song (country song at that) - "I remember when thirty was old/My biggest fear was September..". Funny thing is, the more life goes on, the less old thirty seems. Perspective is where it's at.

Next Wednesday my grade 12 class at Prov is off on our Senior Retreat - off to MacGregor Point for 3 nights and days of camping, hitting the beaches, and general hanging out. I can hardly wait, although I still have to wonder about how it's going to go, knowing our class's great reputation for naturally splitting into a few groups, generally based on gender (I swear the other guys in my class are scared of girls). I plan to enjoy myself, regardless. I haven't seen a beach since Labour Day.

This is my word for tonight. Keep your head up, and the goal in focus.

b